Of Qudwah, and Ukhuwah.

From you i learnt about time management. A mother of five. Plus one in the tummy. Plus another two groups of grown adults as your anak halaqah. Plus uncounted responsibilities on you shoulder... Im amazed to hear your alarm just to hear you say "oh, time to call my daughter"

You dont crack jokes. But talking to you soothes the heart. I feel humbleness in your words of wisdom. I feel someone is ready to listen passionately to anything i'd like to spill. 

With a 7 months foetus in the tummy, I saw you climbing up stair, driving miles apart, sleeping on the sofa while at the same time admit "it's painful to move around"

I remember that morning after Subuh that we had morning tazkirah by one of your mutarabbi.. As you saw me holding pen and notebook, you whispered "I forgot to take my mine". Though it's difficult, you stood up to your bag to get yours, carefully jot down points and notes from the tazkirah. While the one giving tazkirah is one of your mutarabbi. Dozens of years of tarbiyah never made you look as if you had enough. 

I'm humbled when i say, "can you spare me five minutes, i want to do my dhuha" at the time we're about to depart. And heard you reply "oh, i totally forgot" and saw you immediately put off your socks and headscarf as you were ready to jump into the car, just to climb up stairs to the bathroom for wudhu and dhuha too.

I think we spent time together for less than 24h. But the bond feels like the effort of years.. Allahuakbar! How Allah connects the heart. Maybe because it is your sincerity, maybe it is because of the untold mujahadah of you and the others.

Having had to go online in every halaqah; though we tried to utilize the technology as much as we can - being proactive, attentive, responsive, punctual - it is always not the same as face-to-face meetings. Alhamdulillah, given the chance that day; subhanallah I feel the vibe, the aura, the genuine ukhuwwah that is so strong between us. 

How could it not be?? These are the faces that has offered smiles to many other faces. These are the shoulders that held multiple responsibilities in own counties. These are the hearts that has undergone multifarious tests and mujahadah along this path of dakwah. The ukhuwah that often feels pale in our online halaqah... Rekindles. And I shall bare this sweetness in my heart - that ukhuwah because of Iman - gives you all the reasons to love.


Usrah/ mabit/ Birm/ 5th to 6th of December